To say it’s been a tough couple of years for Jennifer Hudson would be a bit of an understatement, but the star revealed making her mum proud is getting her through.
In October 2008 her mother and brothers bodies were found at the family’s home in Chicago. Both Darnell Hudson Donerson and Jason Hudson had been shot.
Then, three days later, they found the body of her 7-year-old nephew, Julian King, in a sport utility vehicle, also shot dead.
The estranged husband of Hudson’s sister, Julia, has been charged with all three murders.
Jennifer appeared on the Oprah Winfrey show, and revealed it was making her mum proud that kept her going through some really difficult times.
She said, “I try to do everything to say, ‘Ok, will my mother like this? Will she be pleased? Will she be proud of that? How do I know she’s happy and she’s smiling down at me from heaven?’” Jennifer added “And that’s what I try to go by and walk by.”
Wiping tears from her eyes, she added that she could hear the voice of her mother and brother telling her to “knock it off” and keep on going.
Talking about the shocking events she said, “It’s such a shocking thing… it’s a lot to take in. It’s like, ‘OK, is this real? Did this really happen?’ It’s hard to put it in sync with reality,”
The 29-year-old is engaged to fiancé David Otunga, and has lost a lot of weight. Talking about David’s difficulty in adjusting to the extra attention she now gets, she said, “It’s like a brand new me… sometimes I don’t even recognize myself.”